Feeling down…

I don’t know why, but after reading pages of other people’s rejections from agents and publishers, I’m just feeling really downhearted today. I was thinking about being unsuccessful as an author or selling little, and it makes me ask the question: Is it worth it? Yesterday my answer was yes, but today it’s leaning towards no instead. I could spend almost six months on this book and nobody would buy it. Yes, hopefully your publishers and agents will give you another chance, but it would still hurt that the first book would never be enjoyed by the masses.

Also, I’ve been seeing in forum posts the rules e.g. instead of saying “He sneered” say “He said” instead and it’s just getting me down. I’m doubting my work and now I’m struggling to write a sentence. I did hear that there’s a slump when you reach the middle of my book, and I took a naughty peek at the word count which sits at 38,000 (I know I said I’d stop but the temptation was too great, plus my OCD makes me a bit obsessive!). Technically I could be halfway there. I hope that’s all it is, instead of me getting bored with the book…

I’d appreciate any encouraging words, whether you’re published or not, I don’t mind and you don’t have to be an author either.

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5 Comments

  1. Anne Brooke said,

    July 24, 2008 at 8:17 pm

    Um, that sounds natural to me. My theory is that if you’re not depressed and feeling hopeless at 38,000 words (ie half-way through), then you’re not a real writer! It happens to EVERYONE. Best way forward, I find, at this stage is to abandon the point you’re at and then go and write another scene later on in the book. That way when you go back to your original 38,000 word scene, then you’ve got something to aim for.

    Even mountaineers don’t think of the whole mountain – they go from camp to camp till they’re there! We writers are lucky in that we can dot between camps in a way mountaineers can’t.

    I’d also say – as I say to my writing group on a very regular basis – don’t worry about what other people are doing or writing. It will be different from you and done in a different way from you. Go on writing in your own particular style in the way that most suits you, building and improving on that, and let it flow. Enjoy and good luck!

    A
    xxx

  2. Nik said,

    July 25, 2008 at 1:41 pm

    Yup, like Anne says, this is normal.

    My advice? Write the best book you can. The important thing is to finish the first draft – then you have something you can work on and make better. And don’t worry too much about ‘rules’ – they’re only guides and they certainly don’t apply all the time. As for agents and publishers and sales – I don’t think I’d think too much about any of that at this stage; concentrate on writing the best book you can write. And, if you can, enjoy it! It’s a hard slog but it is fun as well, isn’t it?

    Nik

  3. ireneintheworld said,

    July 25, 2008 at 2:45 pm

    ditto anne. write for yourself and enjoy it, even the hard times. this is a new life and it’s got completely different rules. don’t worry too much about the ‘rules’ of writing right now, you can do that when you return for the edit. keep writing.

    i had a little look at what you posted last week and thought your writing was great. x

  4. July 25, 2008 at 2:47 pm

    Hi Dream Writer, I just found your blog. I am a short story writer and ever since I gave up the day job to just write fiction 18 months ago, I have suffered from the worst mood swings and periods of depression I have ever had. I blogged about it here. I think it is only natural – we wrters spend so long sitting in a room alone, and then we send our words out into the world only to, most of the time, have them sent back. As a short story writer, I think I am probably lucky in that I get work published as I go along, I don’t face that mountain that is the novel, spending a year or more working on one project without knowing what might happen. But take solace in the fact that your novel will be far more marketable than my short stories! Happy to discuss the writing process etc…. anytime, it’s helped me to talk about it on my blog, and to hear that other people go through this too.
    Best,
    Tania

  5. July 25, 2008 at 6:40 pm

    Thanks for the support everyone!!

    “I’d also say – as I say to my writing group on a very regular basis – don’t worry about what other people are doing or writing. ”

    It’s one of my bad habits. Comparing myself to others. I’m getting better but sometimes I fall back into old ways again.

    “As for agents and publishers and sales – I don’t think I’d think too much about any of that at this stage”

    Yeah, I’m jumping ahead. I did it again today. Instead of writing the book, I went through and looked at agents. It was fun though, because this is starting to feel real.

    “i had a little look at what you posted last week and thought your writing was great. x”

    Thanks!

    “I think it is only natural – we wrters spend so long sitting in a room alone, and then we send our words out into the world only to, most of the time, have them sent back.”

    Glad to know that I’m not alone. I sort of lucky, because I only started this novel 3-4 wks ago and I should be finished in 1-2 months time, meanwhile others spend YEARS and get rejected.


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